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Monday, January 2, 2012

12:42PM - 2012

2012 should mark the end if my world as I know it. But before that happens, I resolve to:
1. Watch my diet
2. Double-watch my diet
3. Be happy

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Wednesday, December 14, 2011

10:24PM

Tell me why, I love you like I do,
Tell me who, Can stop my heart as much as you,
Tell me all your secrets and I'll tell you most of mine,
They say nobody's perfect but it is really true this time,
I don't have the answers,
And I don't have a plan,
All I have is you,
So darling help me understand,
What we do,
You can whisper in my ear,
Where we go,
who knows what happens after here,
Let's take each other's hands,
As we jump into the final frontier,
I'm mad about you,
I'm mad about you,
so mad about you...

Current mood: nostalgic

Monday, December 12, 2011

12:09PM - my pursuit of happiness

A pastor said "you cannot expect people to give you happiness. you have to achieve that yourself. if you are not happy, no one can make you happy."

These lines have been going through my head repeatedly the past week.

what is happiness? according to Wikipedia (and i have no idea where they got that definition from), happiness is "a mental state of well-being characterized by positive emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy."

Intense joy, i guess, is self-created because only you know what brings you "intense joy". what others enjoy may not be what you do, so that i agree you have to achieve yourself.

Contentment is circumstantial, isn't it? you can't possibly be happy if things are going against you. or is it really possible to achieve that state of mind where nothing or no one bothers you even when everything goes wrong?

I thrived on discontentment when growing up. It gave me a perverse sense of motivation to better my circumstances. whining was also a good way to vent frustrations. but over the years, I've come to realise that things that I used to hold important were not necessarily so, and things that I thought were less important suddenly became very important to me. in recent years, i've learnt to let go of many things and had thought that I was finally contented with the lot i was given.

so why am i discontented again? is it because things that i hold dear are no longer what they used to be? circumstantial, isnt it? or is it that as one ages, priorities and expectations change, therefore what used to be sufficient could no longer be so?

or if one is truly a happy person, all these changes would not faze him and that he would still be contented with his lot? sonehow when thinking about this point, the biblical concept of denying oneself came to mind. Must one really deny oneself and put others first in order to be truly happy? because when i look at myself, there are just so many things that I'm not happy about. so happiness is to be selfless and to accept the trials and tribulations and persecutions and all that along with it?

this is too bizarre even for me.

Current mood: contemplative

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

4:46PM - No more Murakami

Whilst sh**ting in the loo just now, I suddenly remembered part of my dream last night. It's too bizarre not to share:

There was this small elephant that was "rescued" and this guy came over to say that he was the owner and that he wanted to take the elephant away. I had to give in as I had no rights to retain the elephant and the elephant was very upset and so it walked away.

I went back to the house to look for it and saw it slumped on the floor just outside the toilet with a packet of noodles near it. I was also holding a packet of noodles/pasta and went up to the elephant to see how I could comfort it. So I asked if it wanted a bowl of noodles, to which it replied "Yes but I prefer it crispy". The last thing I remembered before waking up was cooking a bowl of tom yum noodles with the elephant standing next to me.

Tom yum noodle eating and talking elephants in my dream. There was a reason why I decided to stop reading Murakami.

Current mood: confused

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

6:15PM - First and possibly last

Watching my first bollywood movie. Plot's ok but really a little chong hei. 165 mins.........

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Thursday, September 29, 2011

11:36AM - Breakfast

Four muffins, two tomato cheese buns and a small ham sandwich.

Still unsatisfied.

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*3 layers of FATS - EAT more*

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

1:16PM

wah i dunno if its auntiedom or nirvana, but i've reached a stage where even the most mundane stuff makes me happy.

case in point:
i queued up for almost 45mins for the one-for-one subway deal (yes, this is auntiedom) and while queueing i was contemplating which drink shld i choose (its buy a drink then entitled for the one-for-one). didn't fancy coke, coke light or iced lemon tea. was even wondering why couldnt they offer green tea when it costs the same as the iced lemon tea. anyway when i was at the dispenser, i saw that they now have the passionfruit tea, which happens to be one of the few soft drinks that i fancy, and that kinda made my day/hour.

amazing.

i still feel this sense of happiness when i look at my drink btw. so it wasn't a passing moment kind of thing.

even more amazing.

Current mood: ecstatic

Friday, August 19, 2011

9:25AM - cook, little (curry) pot, cook

want to join "cook a pot of curry" day but
1) no one to cook for
2) the previous two times i attempted curry failed
3) no PRC neighbours to piss off.

Current mood: disappointed

Thursday, July 21, 2011

12:15AM - Lunch till I drop

How to lose weight leh?
Monday's lunch was at Akari. Bento set fantastic.
Tuesday's was at Yamada. The tonkatsu set also good. Lesser stuff than Akari but they used shabu shabu pork instead of cutlet. Yum.
Today's lunch at Hippopotamus. Fantastic la. Steak was great, sides generous, crisps super yum and the choc cake....., divine. I was thinking abt the meal all afternoon. But it was too filling la. Had to skip dinner.
Must stop tomorrow. Maybe finish up my olive stick from Pregos or wanton mee frm lau pat sat. Maybe nasi padang? Hmmm tt one better not. How to lose weight leh?

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Wednesday, July 13, 2011

10:39PM

wah piang. this kinda news can report? then start charging lor. will be millionaires before they die.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/malaysian-women-urge-wives-whores-bed-103112867.html

Current mood: bored

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

10:34PM - yucks

aiyo another dead body found.

1) 12 July - Serangoon Reservoir
2) 5 July - Clementi Woods Park
3) 4 4uly - Forest near Tanah Merah MRT
4) 3 July - water off Harbourfront Walk
5) 2 July - Singapore River
6) 23 June - Punggol River
7) 20 June - Bedok Reservoir

east west north south.

Current mood: nauseated

Monday, July 11, 2011

10:17PM

ever wonder why:

1) you only wanna drink Coke when you're at home and there's none in the fridge but not when you're in the office and there's a fridge full of it?
2) you only wanna have KFC and crabs when others are having it, but its a chore to finish it when you're having it?
3) everyone thinks of instant noodles when in need of a quick meal when pasta is actually quicker (just boil and pour pasta sauce) and healthier?

Current mood: contemplative
*6 layers of FATS - EAT more*

Sunday, May 15, 2011

10:51PM - The road i took.

"long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could.....

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear"

Current mood: nostalgic

Thursday, May 12, 2011

8:53PM

end of another era.

Current mood: nostalgic

Sunday, March 13, 2011

3:33PM

"Wish is for girls with broken hearts and boys with broken condoms.”
- Ed Goodson, $#*! My Dad Says.

Current mood: giggly

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

9:38PM

my fave cai peng stall at bedok inter has closed down. what should i do? what else can i eat?

Current mood: sad

Monday, February 28, 2011

8:18PM

i have smelly feet.

Current mood: nauseated

Saturday, February 26, 2011

12:06AM

wah lau craving for liu sa bao. of all things. where to find???

Current mood: hungry
*5 layers of FATS - EAT more*

Sunday, February 20, 2011

10:42PM

from urbandictionary.com

the meaning of dawn:
1. One's true love in life.
2. An irresistible beautiful girl who can make her very special sexy friend hard and horny and is proud of it.
3. A female who is intelligent, deliciously sexy, and stunningly gorgeous. One who is able to make men burn with desire.

the other definitions are not too flattering so shan't include them.

Happy birthday A. Hope spending your birthday in Tokyo makes leaving your true love and irresistibly beautiful and deliciously sexy wife in Singapore worth it.

Current mood: bored

Sunday, February 13, 2011

7:49PM

pizza and coke - what else can i ask for?

Current mood: happy

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